it is the way it's suppose to be.

(i know this is an old picture)

let's quiz ourselves today : what is the one thing that you can never let go, your happiest treasure, even if it sometimes hurt you more than you can handle to get it right?


guess what.


okay, now let's narrow the scope. it is only natural for a boy to have feelings on a girl and vice versa. that's just pure how the world goes round since Ice Age. thats what makes babies (okay, aside the topic).



me, eventhough i myself have my own other half, have always and hopefully forever hold on to this two things:


1) no matter what happen (how over-the-moon, sad, emotionless or whatever), in the end, i only have myself to rely to.
2) he is not perfect, though he might be my angel on earth, his inner shell has flaws.


and what do i achieve from these two things you might ask?


yes, it has undeniably made me a bit selfish and ego when it comes to relationships. i have somehow manage to place a barrier between me and the fantasy world of love. i would each time tell myself this; "heart, you are tougher than you think you are. you don't need to carry this with you. if no one can appreciate your loveliness and sacrifice, you must let it go. that's the only way you can move on. you have nothing to lose, heart. you have you,"


most of the time, when i feel deeply in love with a person or was sadden with someone i love, i would remind myself of this two things. it is by far the only way i know of how to protect my heart and make sure myself can get along without hurt a hitch.



as i know that men and women made to complete each other is the rule of the world, i also know that down the slope, nothing last forever.



i know that some people love their other half like crazy, i do too.
i know that some people would die for their other half, if i know the ways, i would too.

i love my other half and he knows this, but he also know that i love myself more than i love him. and he knows that thats important.