gotta keep blogging. why? because life hasn't been great now. why? because the studies are getting harder. why? because there's no certain answers. why? because i freaking chose this life, that's why!
i'm not trying to be sloppy here but when i read my past entries on how much law has changed my life, i keep thinking where does my spirit go to now? that seems distance away..and i didn't know where to find it. shit! but i don't want giveup. i will not give up. too many have i relented to my woes and my tears and they've got problems too, so it's unfair for me to give up. what about abah? he'll be devastated if i chose to quit and take up a new course. and mak, and my sisters. i don't want to turn down their hopes of seeing me to become a lawyer one day. and my friends too, we need one another to survive this course, and they are the only ones that kept me going each day. thank you CHERPOMS. and thank you to hadzwan too, for the far too many rejected wedding proposals! hahaa!
criminal law is tough, i admit. never in my whole entire life have i ever given up to something. seriously, addmaths susah macam mane dulu pun tak giveup macam ni. and i did try, to my level best, to understand and like the topic murder and culpable homicide. i called abah yesterday, and cried. that's something i never did in my entire life. and abah said, don't give up, try and keep trying, take everything slowly.he was once in my shoes before, when we're in US and abah had to study through the nights, i used to be sooo mad because he wouldn't want to play restaurants or watch Barney with me.now i understand the sacrifices it took to get where he is now, and i look up to that. and then he let me speak to Ari, which was so adorable because Ari couldn't say anything except for purring incomprehensible words =) but abah said that Ari didn't want her big sis to give up, so i won't =).
during the tutorial this morning, i didn't know where i get the strength to attempt to answer the question. mainly because i am tired of not knowing and understanding the topic, so i don't care and want to do what it takes to know what i didn't. as usual, and as predicted, the lecturer yelled at me, called me names when i had wrongly structured the sentences, asked me to close my answer sheet, and was about to throw me out of the class. but that all was worth it, though i don't quite understand yet how to ascertain people's mind (or intention for that matter) when doing the killings, i appreciate the hardships now. hanging a person to death is not a simply decided matter. as Lord Atkin once said, "it is better to acquit ten guilty men than to hang an innocent one". even if the act of the accused does amount to murder on the surface, a lot of other matters need to be consider, like the theories of the punishment. and no hadzwan dear, watching Detective Conan isn't going to help =)
okay, having said that, i'll move to a much brighter tone. we're going to have moots on 30th of March. yeay to that LOL! and the costume presentation on 2nd April. myra and i have just known that the costume thingy is going to chalked up 60% of our full assessment, so we're going to try to do our best, and compete with the drama students in presenting the best costume design. we're doing Pocahontas by the way =)
tonight, i'll be going to Mid Valley for the last faculty activity, which is the bowling tournament, and support my dear friends, and after that, off to Rasta as requested by Ad and at the end of the day, hopefully we'll be able to play Hijack! can't wait!
makeup update- Revlon 3D Extreme Mascara and Silky Girl Lipliner in 01 Nude.
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