*this picture i "curi" so as to stress the rare side of bella*
okay, it started with a friend. the friend has another friend who's been the total opposite of her but they cling on to each other like magnets on the fridge, and they are really close. close enough that they are noticed for that.they had 2 years of friendship during schooltime, and still remain so until today. then, the education system took its toll ( what a way to mention it eh?), and the friend got accepted to do a course locally while the other friend went to study abroad. they tried to keep their friendship alive throughout the time no matter how hard it is. come years and other commitments, sometimes it's hard to keep something that far away. at least speaking from the friend's perspective, well, she should know.=(
so here, i'm the friend. and my other friend is bella.
she's on her holiday right now in Malaysia. she did tell me when we were sms-ing and fb-ing and i've remembered the date like a plaque in my head.we had this plan that the four of us, that is me, her and our guys, to go on a holiday together. the plan changed for some understandable reasons and i've been a complete asshole as to totally forgot everything about it since then! what a twitch! i asked abah if possibly i could stay over in her place some days but was refused as the family needed me during the holidays (my sisters, ari's been sick, mak is working, abah's outstation, etc). so i guessed i could visit her next week, when i'm free. and i couldn't thank God Of Perfect Timing for going to have her on the plane back to Manipal already by then! uuuggghh! this is so unfair, it's been bugging me these couple of days...it's really frustrating. it's one of my new year's resolution, for crying out load! who in the world would'nt have the time to spend with her best of friend?seriously, and i'm not even exaggerating this. if it was a capital offence, i would've literally brought myself to hang.
bella, i'm really really really sorry for not making the time to visit you. i know i did promise that when hadzwan came, i would go and visit you. but since abah didn't approve of crossing states during the hols, i only ever get to go out once during the holiday, and that even strecthed just a couple of miles away from home. i'm really really sorry. i don't want to make excuses, cuz i know i'm in the wrong and it's no good to explain it when i couldn't say anything besides i'm sorry. i'm sorry i'm not much of a friend to you these days. i feel really really bad. i know that compare to you, i've been prioritizing more on hadzwan. that much i give you, and you deserve my honesty. i know it's not fair. i wished i'm not like that, it makes me feel like Bella Swan on the Twilight guy already.i don't want to make promises, i'm determined to show them. so if there is any other ways, not as a redemption for this, but to be a good friend, please know you can count on me.i'm sorry..
please forgive me =(
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