you don't know what's inside here.

i know you care, and i probably am asking for too much.

so if it gets out of hand, i can back away, no questions.

that's why it is best if i don't depend on you much to make me happy, make me whole.

for all this while, i can manage to be on my own.

i can take care of myself, don't worry.

we live in a world where the natural law says, "you live on your own and you'll die alone. everything else in between is just to fill in the gaps of your life"

so why have we forgotten that?

i need to see myself as a whole worthy being that i love and care more than anyone else, because no one will ever care more about me than my own body.

i don't want you to feel like i own you, and you need to oblige me, because the best of you isn't decided by me.

i just want us to be two nice people caring for each other the best they could, and not hoping for anything in return.

that way, we have nothing to lose whilst nothing to gain.

i just want you to know that i'm still the same, just my priorities have changed.

i want to do a lot of things, so i can't guarantee you anything because likewise, the best of me isn't decided by you.

though i really put hope on us to make things through, it's not in my book to let go of my dreams.

because in the end, all we have is just ourselves.



xoxo,
lylasyahirah