until when?

my second semester started with me not liking it. not that i had problems with my last sem's result-they exceeded my expectation really! but the fact of going without those people whom u always hung up with in my first sem kinda bugs me off.i don't know how to react to that fact. shud i just pretend like nothing ever happens?but that would be too much work-pretending that TOO much never happened.

whatever.

now-i have developed this "what do i care" attitude, just so tha my head can get a lil' hangover. i mean,puff~~its okay to respect people and all, but if the same respect doesn't seen to rank in any of that people's standard, i would say just drop it. get serious. i would not be harping under your skirts just to get through my life.i don't have to do that.you just get this much of respect, or none at all.full stop.hahaa.

boy, wish things would be different.but now,(departing from my problem above), my attitude did teach me a lesson or two. for some reason, i have become less concious.i do things i wanted, the way i wanted without having to think what others might say to them.i wish i had it come to me earlier.this is certainly the kind of things that i want to have to make my then miserable life a hell lot better.i want to be bold-so go dark brown.nobody gives any nickel for it,or i'd be a rich gal.still, i won't push it.i'm perectly content to do what i want to do.

so,in the nerve of sounding 'respectful', here are the things i want to do:
- being able to walk down a foyer with my head high and without the fear of being inspected.
- being able to think that other people do like me but they just don' show it. if they don't,well, too bad.
- being able to defend without opening vulnerability.
- go auburn or burgandy hair streaked.
- go black nail polish
- go crazy as much as i wanted to

there.

so, if u want to do something today, don't wait until the coast is clear before u could set the sail off. sometimes, the tide might run your ship faster than u can think off.try to do it. try not to do it then. what about trying the "what do i care" attitude"? think about it.

Martin Luther King JR-"Intelligence plus caracter is the true education"