time is always at essence even as we speak. i was so preoccupied with work that i didn't notice its the 3rd week already. my work has been jumbled up. i was always struggling to meet my tutorials and almost always (i try not to be so judgmental here) had to complete my work in a hassle. all in all, it was not so bright on my academic performance, but i have liven up through a lot since that.
quite a lot throughout 7 months in UM.quite a lot...owh yeah, the campus election :).if i had to describe what i had been through the last week, i would say this-EVERYTHING.it was painful,daunting,tormenting,injurous. it was appealing, satisfying,pleasing,breathtaking.it had violated a handful of stands in the Good Of Heart Code Book, yet it healed all the same.
what really happened, nobody knows. even i missed out on vital points.everything was operated secretively, hushed up.so naturally, nasty rumours spread around.everyone, no matter how much u try to avoid it, would be drawn to it.everyone had, or would take sides.each sides were like two very different nations of war. everyone paraded more than just banners and posters and flyers.candidates oh my, some of them are very very bold.even when restricted, they could climbed on a chair and gave a speech away,even.the security were on the go as they never been before, for the mahasiswa and mahasiswi had gone up and showed more than the university rules could handle.the effect of one week was tremendous.
i guess i could not speak as much as i would like to, not even here.i don't dare to open up old wounds, not when the new ones are about to heal (or if there are any other broken pieces out there that i did not know, i'm sorry).and in any case, even if i was daring enough, i wouldn't do it.the price is just too... :p i've been there and experienced it first hand.i admit, it wasn't a fancy sight.but here is what i wanted to say,and i could say it. at least, i'm allowed some room in this space without people picking and pointing things out.
i know politics as much as i know how to match fabrics and colors and lining for my room curtains. however however, truth be told..seriously and honestly..cross my heart and search my soal, my involvement has never been outside the limit of helping a friend.a friend i know who has this dream, not to change the surroundings we had today, but to inject a little difference. a friend whom i know very well(da berkawan sangat2 baek utk 2 tahun) and i know her potentials and how well hidden they are. but most importantly, s friend who i know that without me,she would have no one else to back her up, for her to lean in and that i am all she got.
people say that u will get to see your friends true colours when the worst has come to you. i think this is the best situation to describe it. in the end, i've learnt that it is not the matter of how many friends you got smiling and laughing woth u throughout your days, but how many friends who can in turn make u smile and laugh and bring u back to your happy days. it doesn't matter if there were only a very very few among your friends who can fall into that category, because then u will know who will be the ones helping u through thick and thins and who will be dragging u back instead (ini sangat2 suke aku ucapkan pada kawan aku yang dibantu itu bila kami hampir putus harapan).
anyone who read this would know that i have a lot more to say, but they know better. ape yang penting di sini,kita semua sebenarnya sama, berdiri pada platform yang sama dan berpegang pada prinsip yang serupa.yang membezakan cume pengaplikasian kita pada kedua-dua normaliti tersebut.ada sesetengah orang yang sangat hardcore menjalani satu-satu aplikasi sementara sebilangan besar hanya mengikuti sahaja method yang dibuat sesetengah orang ini.boleh dikira dengan sebelah tangan berapa ramai sahaja yang berani bangun dan mengocakkan normaliti itu yang dirasakan sudah terlalu selesa berada di tampuk teratas supaya penekanan baru diberikan atas kehendak hidup berkelompon yang lebih baik. well, all i can say is, it takes a lot to stand up against ur rivals, but it takes a lot more to stand up against ur friends.alhamdullilah..all well ends well :)
for my dearest friend,thanks for the courage, calmness, and STARBUCKS coffee..hehee really a treat to achieve solidarity.
"a friend's job is not to judge, not to pull you backwards and say u can't do it because of this and that, but a friend's job is to be there beside u, to help and guide u and even if u fall, they won't put u on the ground too long but help u back on ur feet"
No comments:
Post a Comment