Thursday, August 16, 2012

Four-ever

KLCC Park, 2011

I don't wanna forget the present is gift. And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me. Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed.

Alicia Keys, Like You'll Never See Me Again.

Japanese Park, Ipoh, 2011

On that riverbank there was no music to hear. I pulled you in close and whispered in your ear "I think I know a tune you'll like". So I hummed something soft and sweet, the stars came out as we moved our feet.

Ron Pope, Our Song
His Graduation, 2011


Every time I turn around, I think I've got it all figured out. My heart's keep calling and I keep on falling, over and over again.

Kelly Clarkson, The Trouble With Love Is

Cameron Highland road trip, 2009

Cause even the stars they burn, some even fall to the earth. We've got a lot to learn, God knows we're worth it. I don't want to be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make.

Jason Mraz, I Won't Give Up 
 
Port Dickson road trip, 2010.

The first time in my life and now it's so clear. Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here. It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere. I wouldn't change a thing about it. This is the best feeling.

Avril Lavigne, Innocence

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

"honestly, you're overreacting!,"

Recently an old friend whom I haven't met in 5 years made a remark that my skin looks somewhat darker than it used to be, well, 5 years ago. To go a limb in the blonde's book, I must admit that I was quite hurt (but of course I got over it quickly. there was a lot more stories to share than the color of my complexion-obviously that was not the center of attention in any reunion LOL)

Well, let's just face it. 5 years ago I was still in my teen years, obliged by the 3 step skincare routine, had a much freer life, acne free and of course, fairer. Now I am well into the middle of the 20s, having gone on and off on the routine depending on the mood, dealt with stressful occasions that led to pimple spots, wore more makeup, all of which results to my skin surrendering to pigmentation.

Since then, I decided to wear less makeup. Well not really- I've been cutting out on makeup for quite some time ever since I switched to BB creams. The next few items you'll about to see are some which I wear on minimal account if I ever needed to.

Sephora Fond De Teint Couvrant Perfecteur in #25 Medium Beige
I bought this, I would say, about 3 months ago when I needed something to wear for an event that was going on at my school at that time. I wanted some good quality high end basic foundation that would do the trick ie cover my old pimple spots. I don't always break out as a rule thanks to my normal to dry skin but when I do, it leaves old spots that are just as hard to cover up as freckles do. So I went to Sephora and the lady there matched me with several Sephora foundations - they have an impressive range - and I found myself drawn to this one. It was light weight so I need not worry about future pimple's visitation LOL but it is definitely a full coverage type of foundation.

Yep, old habits die hard. No remarks from old friend or foe is going to make me change my liking towards full coverage foundation.

This little beauty costs RM65. I was quite happy I paid drugstore prices for something high end. Would definitely repurchase this one if I didn't like anything else in the meantime.

Garnier Skin Naturals Light BB Moisturizer
This one here is, without a doubt, a BB cream at its core. Now, I have mentioned before that I love the Super + Beblesh Balm and I'm still using it but recently, the pump got a little screwed up and it was getting annoying to get the products out. My mother used this Garnier BB Cream as a back up for her foundation and I have taken just a little tiny weeny bit use out of it too. This one here has the same texture as a tinted moisturizer and not as thick a formula compared to the Super +. The later has a bit of a grey tinge color to it that I was told was not everyone's favorite and it takes quite some time to blend in the skin. Garnier however, I have noticed was not too harsh and probably a bit easy. I don't know if it's really a BB Cream standard in comparison to the ones originated from Korea or Japan but as long as it does the trick of having light makeup thus reducing unwanted comments from pals then I'm all for it.

Elianto Forever Duo Lip in #1 and #2
The pale face effect after slathering foundation and BB cream is balanced by this little baby over here that I got a while ago. I'm not sure if they still have this in store -pretty sure there aren't- but regardless, I haven't had much use out of it either. It's chilly red and I have only ever uses it for blogposts and things similar. I would never be caught dead wearing this in public!


Ever!



But then again, I think I just might :)

Thursday, July 19, 2012

how blue you do?

"Lalu 365 Hari berlalu, cinta itu tak pergi, hilang atau berganti"
It was my birthday not two days ago. I never paid any extra attention to my birthdays anymore, the only bearing that the date 17/7 has on my year is simply that, I turned a year older. But that doesn't mean that to me, it is any less significant. I woke up two days ago, feeling grateful as ever to God for the opportunity to live and amend my living in the coming years. I woke up, not expecting presents, but only warm wishes from friends and family whom until this day, I have not forgotten to wish the same thing back.

To risk speaking in vain, I must say, I am quite fortunate. I don't have resolutions to make on my birthday, hence less expectation on myself. I keep myself to simple goals everyday- to be understanding, to be loving, to be patient. I set myself out to be practical in every possible way, most importantly, in love and friendship. I understand now that as one grows older, one must make choices. To hold it in or to let it out. To forgive and forget or to still hold grudges. To change or to stay the same. To live in the present awaiting the future or to hold the present 'hostage' for any redemption from the past. All is the same. One CHOOSES.

Thank you God, for above everything else, you keep my heart firm and grounded.

I received a pleasant surprise from a friend of mine in Indonesia, who happens to be a writer. I cannot remember exactly how we got to know each other- only I know she did the first move. It was a facebook friendship that soon turned into late night BBM texting. I have a couple of Indonesian friends and vice versa, so we weren't speaking hens and ducks all the time. When I knew her, she just got out from a really bad break up. Tragic. The kind of relationship and break ups that you know if Karan Johar got a hold of her story, he can make millions. I kept trying to get her to tell me her story but I was either a very bad persuader or she just had her head straight on not telling. Well, it turns out to be neither. She was just waiting to tell her story. Not to me. But to the everyone. In a book.

Not everyone can pull an Adele. It takes more than guts to spill everything out of your chest for the whole community to see. I don't know how she does it, but she did. Needless to say, I was thrilled to find this in my mailbox today, like I said, two days after my birthday. I am glad that I was fated to know someone as wonderful as her. Someone who chooses like I choose.

I was strongly reminded at this moment of a phrase that Wardina Saffiyah used in "Ini Kisahku" and between these two paragraphs, I add as an afterthought;

"Bila kita bercadang atau berniat untuk lakukan perubahan, Tuhan akan hantar orang yang baik-baik, yang sesuai dengan perubahan yang kita nak buat,"

Oh did I mention her name? What rudeness, my apologies. Her name is Ratna Ayu Pratiwie, also known as Nana. And as far as her book goes, she went rogue. She didn't cower behind anonymous nicknames.

Let me share a bit of the excerpt of this book..

     Semua orang yang pernah jatuh cinta pasti pernah patah hati. Tapi berteman dengan rasa sakit itu setiap harinya dan masih bisa tertawa adalah satu anugerah dan sikap yang luar biasa. Dan hidup tidak melulu tentang pasangan dan pacaran. Buktinya sudah setahun ini aku masih betah dengan kesendirian selepas kepergiannya. Bahkan entah kenapa semua ini seolah-olah benar-benar aku nikmati karena apapun tentangnya yang belum bisa pergi di hatiku. Lalu 365 hari berlalu. Cinta itu tak pergi, hilang ataupun berganti. Masih disitu, di tempat dia berada sebelumnya. Dan kepada orang yang sama.
-Ratna Ayu, 365 Hari

I heard from her that this book, though it is no Twilight, makes its own significant success in Indonesia. It has its own book launching and signing session. My friend Nana made a considerable mark in her pocket as well as her healing heart. I was tempted to finish this as soon as possible but this is as good a read as the Anne Frank Diary. It's short, but you need to savour every page because it is part of history. This is her (Nana) history. I'm going to take a leaf out of Anne Frank's and put it into this book.

Makasii banyak buat hadiahnya ini pada ulangtahunku, Na. Aku beruntung punya teman kayak kamu. Semoga sukses selalu. 

Make good choices.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

past midnight jot

crushed entertwined,
what I sought,
what I heard,
you were no more than reality and fantasy combined.

true.

I was once a lover of love,
a lover even in the heart of stones,
in every line and every curve,
most of all,
even when you least deserve.

what is it, you ask,
what is darkness when it's pitch black,
what is sorrow when you're always sad,
what is forever when you can't be dead,
just here, be here,
never moving, never changing.

alas.

you're with me, diverted.

maybe in Time when you're a blur,
a fiction of even I can't be sure,
a lonely thread from the circle of my desire,
maybe only then,
I can say clearly, unchaste,
I am here, always,
but you belong to my past.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

I say "Oh, it's gonna be a good life, a good good life!"

You can expect that though I'm the first to rave about this, I'm also likely to be the last to blog about this. And life doesn't get any beautiful than that.

So behold.

I didn't do much/have much to do (depends on how you put it) now that I'm only short of 4+ months of studying here in University Malaya. Except for of course, studying, I decided to go a little daredevil and joined this little cute production of this little cute college- the theater production. Apart from the fact that I love the idea of art and acting myself, I also figured that as someone as old as I am, I've got nothing to lose.

Well, except if you count the past three years that I've spent not joining anything art-filling and finally pulled the guts to do it in my final year, then..

The same old repetitive story that I've been playing in my mind: went for the audition-got selected-script came out-skim through the pages but a single female line was not found-they want male actors only-figuring what else can I offer-decided to stay as a makeup crew.

It wasn't so bad. I told myself that as much as I love acting, I would gladly settle for anything less than that if it so requires. Being in Mock Trial for the past four years (the only stage act that I did) taught me that.. who am I kidding? I love performing, that much is true. I would never bring myself to quit it. As I said, the only exception to my feelings that I harbor is that I waited this long to be a part of something so...beautiful.

"macam mana perasaan first time masuk? seronok?," -elloanwarmansur

It was beyond seronok, I must say. Anyway, onto the integral part of this long winded and soon picture loaded post.
The story of the theater was about this group of 5 people who have been on battle for a while with a last shot of escape in the form of one of them agreeing to be a suicide bomber. The story was called BERANI MATI, script written by Mr Fasyali who also help directed the theater this time.

And because the other thing that I love apart from acting/being in a performance is undeniably, makeup..I shall bore your eyes out on my job scope as one of ze makeup crew, along with 2 other beautiful ladies.

We did some makeup hunting to look for colors appropriate for stage makeup, but the director wanted the looks on the actors to be nude, "filthy" and "smudgy" lookings. Think car mechanic's style. I ended up using most of my own makeups and bought only the essential makeup tools.

First of when you're not sure yourself of the kind of makeup that you're about to make, try and understand the characters' role. Asked the director and the actors on the type of makeup that they want. I remembered my days in Mock Trial when I demanded this and that from the ever patient makeup crew (believe me, I'm tasting my own medicine now). I realized how hard it was to actually do someone else's makeup, let alone makeup on boys! So first off, I need a model to test out the makeup that I'm going to use. I definitely didn't want to have fidgety fingers if the first time I get to apply makeup on the actors was when the show is about to start!



The very kind volunteer who didn't know what he's getting into when I asked to do makeup test on him.

Terima kasih, Halim ;D


On the day of the show itself, the makeup turned out pretty good on the actors.




Farid "playing around" with the bombs attached to a jacket


Farid (right) and Pian (left). I like Pian's fake mustache and beard, courtesy of black kajal liner and some black eyeshadow all over. Thanks to my ever awesome makeup crew, I failed with this on first try. And on Farid, we placed some black "celoreng".


Lipan, the total klutz soldier who was so good in his role, he won the Anugerah Pelakon Pembantu Lelaki Terbaik!


Razak, the main actor who was nominated for Anugerah Pelakon Lelaki Terbaik. His "jambang" was made out of tea seeds!


Lipan (left) and Razak (right)


The bomb makers. Pian and Azhar. Azhar's hollow cheeks was out of much much much shading.


Azhar and Lipan. It was so tough applying makeup on Azhar. He can't stand kajal eyeliner on his waterline and tightline that I have to literally have someone hold his head up so I could fill the liners in. LOL ;D Glad that the uneasiness he felt in his eyes didn't show up in his acting- he was nominated for Anugerah Pelakon Lelaki Harapan.

The night of the show was a blast. Every five of them did their very best. Apart from the nominations mentioned above, we were also nominated for Anugerah Props Terbaik, Anugerah Skrip Terbaik, Anugerah Pengarah Terbaik, Anugerah Tatarias dan Busana Terbaik ( :D ). We were just estatic to be nominated and when the winner's name was called up one nomination after another, we realized that all we have to be proud of was the award that goes to Lipan.
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Until they announced the 1st runner up winner, and our name was called..we went ballistic.



Shooo proud of my team! My heart went out for them, and I truly feel some bond of just more than teammates surrounding- we have turned to friendship. Very, very bittersweet I tell you. Had we win or had we lose, I love them all the same with my whole heart. When it all ended, today and now, I was bumped into thinking that I have to force myself to turn back to my studies and the beloved faculty. Although I joined in late and God knows how much I regret that now, I'm still grateful to have this opportunity nevertheless. Better late than never right?


Thank you to the directors, scriptwriter, casts and crews (makeup team, costume team, lighting team, props team, stage manager), of which without all of these lovely people, I wouldn't carry around this bliss of utter happiness and satisfaction inside my head, heart and even in my stomach!

Nailed :'D Bai Semua!

p/s: just sharing with you some of the team's other thoughts here and here.

Monday, February 13, 2012

wear em till they flair


Hye All! first of all, a very happy start of the semester. I'm not quite sure yet how mine is going to fare me but since this is my last one (hopefully) I'll make very full use out of it.

Just sharing few bits and bops for the early studying process. Some things that makes my heart flutter every time I see/put them on.

*excuse giddiness and the constant webcam-ing. you outta know by now that a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!



Necklace and Ring

I've posted a picture before about some of the accessories that I got (along with Catching Fire and Mockingjay books) and needless to say, I've been wearing them with pride ever since. I particularly liked the necklace. It's not too long like the other necklaces I owned but it sits perfectly over any tops that I'm wearing. I usually like my necklaces to be long and relent longly on ones that don't because it's pointless wearing a short one over a hijab. Being my current fav piece, I even paired it with a flowery blouse once and much to the opposition by my boyfriend cuz you can hardly see 'em on, I simply had to wear 'em. It's a rusty gold necklace (ya know I like my stuffs to be rose gold) with white and gold wings and a heart in the middle.

And my double fingered ring that looks like Wolverine claws...

...I usually like my rings to be gold in color to but this one has it's own edge feeling to it. I'm picky over rings because they don't fit me well because of my stub fingers but this one matches me perfectly. I don't wear this often, not as often as the necklace but I do like it a lot. I still feel a little self concious because it does look massive on my fingers but for the most part, it's pretty unique.

Lip Combo


I've been playing around in my lipstick and lipgloss holder yesterday and come up with a combo that I like, probably be wearing them often during the first and second week of the semester, before it tires me into a new direction.



Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick in #628 Peach Me and Elianto Lustro Lip Gloss in #05 Pizzaaz

I like the peach/light coral color that the Revlon lipstick gives and I'm glad that adding the lipgloss on top doesn't disrupt it, in fact it just compliments and enhance the color and gives my lips a subtle feel of "just dug into a fruit bowl of watermelon".

Speaking of Revlon, I've bumped into these babies at Watsons and was debating whether to get them or not. Then I was thinking, what the heck!


I brought the MJ poster back yaw!!

Anyways, I bought two of the new Revlon Lipbutters in #096 Macaroon and #020 Brown Sugar. The packaging was okay- I still prefer the Revlon's sleek black case instead of this plastic ones. The only new thing is that you need to open the whole tube of plastice case to get to the lipsticks, which is not an easy feat. I twisted and pulled it over before I can get these devils to open up. It's packaged the same way as Maybelline's new Color Sensational line lipsticks minus the hard work to open it up.

When it DOES finally open..the colors are not so bad. My first thought of them was meh, but after a few tries they do work out pretty good. They're very moisturizing, even more than the regular Revlon lines but not very creamy. I judged from the lipbutters that they're supposed to be balm-y instead of cream-y, if you know what I mean and honestly right now, I prefer the Revlons regular line than these. I like my lipsticks to be creamy and rich feeling- I got my lipbalms for the acclaim buttery effect. But I probably need these to grow on me.

Some crappy swatches you can't see properly at the back of ma hand! LOL, too bad.

Bai Semua!

Friday, February 10, 2012

cheap makeup is an ESSENCE


Essence Blush Brush, Essence Quattro eyeshadow in #05 "to die for", Essence Silky Touch blush in #10 "adorable", Essence Stay With Me longlasting lipgloss in #03 "candy bar", Essence longlasting eye pencil in #01 "black fever", Essence kajal pencil in #04 "white"

Yesterday was not the best time to go makeup shopping. I was pissed over something trivial and "being in the time of the month", 'justified' seems like a correct word for all the stuffs above..at least at that point of time.

Tonight as I look back at my purchases, it didn't escape me that I have managed to get cheap stuffs whilst I was pretty sure I grabbed things absentmindedly yesterday. Lucky I only stucked in the Essence section, which I've mentioned before in a post where I rant about a mascara I bought from them.

I kept the receipt but rest assured I spent lest than RM50. Still guilty as charged.

I wanted to see if the makeups that I bought even work. I mean, the mascara was an okay product for being so cheap, but I wasn't so sure about the rest of the items. I'm not one to quickly associate good makeup means big money though, all of you know that I rarely slurged unless it's that good. If you're with me long enough, you'll know I stuck on Elianto for a long time.

No, to me, the techniques in applying makeup is the most important. And that's what I'm trying on tonight.




I must say, it looks pretty good. I mean, the makeup..


Okay, being serious now. Webcam quality isn't at its greatest though, and please don't nag on why I need to do this so late in the night as to deprive myself of good natural lighting and better quality pictures.



You (I) would think that the eyeshadow quad was the crappiest of them all, but no. It is definitely powdery and pigmented enough. Not chalky to anyone's dislike. definitely a Silkygirl quality if you know what I mean. I bought the neutral shades just to be less disappointed if it didn't turn out to my expectation, but it surpass that. I especially love the two colors that I'm pointing my fingers to in that picture. The darkest brown is a matte color whilst the other three has little shimmers in them.

Darn it. I hate my webcam, period.


Up close and still hate it. My lighting is so bright in this room #blameitonotherthingsexceptself



I know the blush wouldn't show up most- I picked the palest shades from the range. It doesn't dispose much, but the product is hardly to blame. I've tried building it up but against natural lighting, it is really difficult to tell. Part of me thinks that this would be a comparison to Silkygirl "Dune Rose" blush that I had (in college so can't show you now) but I remembered the later being a lot more pigmented though it's the palest of its shades. I wouldn't recommend buying this one and instead, pick up the later from Silkygirl. Not unless all you like is a sheen to the cheek.


The lipgloss is..everything a lipgloss should be. Shiny (glossy) enough and has nice smell. Whether it be sticky or not depends on everyone's liking, and to me this one is semi sticky, which is okay- it definitely doesn't clamp your lips together. I believe I picked up the brightest shade if not the second brightest and it's okay enough to be worn on it's own whenever I feel lazy for a lipstick or lipliner.


Excuse my non-symmetrical eyes..

The eyeliner is my second favorite from all the mash above- the eyeshadow quad being the best by far. I applied this on my waterline and it is soooo good. It's creamy and black enough and doesn't smudge. Of course the non smudging part is contributed by a coat of black eyeshadow on top (TIP ALERT!) but it is good nonetheless. I've had eyeliner that didn't deposit anything other than bits of black specks (a much expensive one that is too). Me like this.


Me like 'em 'oll!

Products not from Essence:-
Revlon Photoready foundation in "Golden Beige"
Topshop cream concealer in "Light"
Loreal Super Liner Intense for upper lashline
Maybelline Falsies Mascara



Bai Semua!

Monday, February 6, 2012

"you love me. real? or not real?,"


The second and the third book in the series. It took me some time between the last post and this post to finish reading them, hence completing my whole read on the Hunger Games.

I must be honest here and say that it's not quite like the experience I have when reading the Harry Potter series. All 7 books brought anxiety to me without fail and to think again, maybe that wouldn't be fair a comparison to the Hunger Games. It's quite a new read to me though I know this series have been out long enough since 2007, but I know myself. I need a couple more reads, maybe some flip-through to some of the chapters that I liked best and allow it to grow on me.

Speaking of a few chapters, I feel like this post will be shortly written to the point of prejudice in my part if I didn't share a few highlights that I like for myself. Maybe not an all round overview, but just enough to wirte about my journey when reading these books.

Yes, that should be it. A journey.

When I first read the Hunger Games, I must confess that I have probably 70% knowledge already on the book judging by the extensive reviews that I have read prior. In spite of that, it was still an enjoyable read. 70% of that knowledge revolves on the game played. The main character in this book is a very stubborn, hard-to-figure girl with speech incapability that sometimes get on my nerve called Katniss Everdeen. Bad characters aside, at least the ones I judged of her instead of what the author really wanted to portray, she is very brave, cunning, willing to sacrifice herself for her loved ones and one that stands out the most about her is that, she dislikes being in debt with anyone and will try very hard to repay them.

I went from liking to not liking to liking her back all the way through the books. And it isn't something that I can help because sometimes I feel like she doesn't like herself that much when she did something wrong for the sake of something she thought was right. That's why I love this book- it shows that not every story needs to be perfectly written, that sometimes even the main character fails you. And it's hard not to fail on you because the games are so realistic, so based on human morality and standards that you know by putting yourself in that situation, you might be forced to do exactly the same things as she did.

I think I'm confusing some of you here, but let's move on.

Anyway, Katniss has a mother and a sister named Primrose Everdeen and they lived off poorly, managing each day by scarce provisions that she could provide by hunting. Oh yeah I forgot to mention one good part of her, that she's very partial to her bows and arrows. She hunt down animals or "games" as they called it that way. She has a bestfriend named Gale Hawthron. They all lived in District 12 out of 13 Districts of Panem, controlled by the Capitol.

The Hunger Games is something that the Capitol invented, mostly to show that they are in complete power. So basically every year, a girl and a boy from each districts- 1 until 12- will get picked out to represent their districts in the Hunger Games. They were later called Tributes and in order to win, they must survived the rest in the Games and that vastly include killing. One thing that shock me reading this series is how eventhough I find the idea repulsive-and trust me when reading the actual thing, they make it look repulsive- I can't bring myself into hating any of the Tributes no matter how readily they seem to kill each other. Not even when they kill the ones that have no self defense or the quick witted ones or girl tribute who begged and cried. I'm not convinced that I have gone to think that it's okay to kill for your own life but in the games, they made it look like you have to choose what's at stake. I really like something that Peeta Mellark said (he is the boy tribute for District 12 besides Katniss), in Mockingjay, and I quote;

"...As bad as it makes you feel, you're going to have to do some killing, because in the arena, you only get one wish. And it's very costly."

"It costs your life," says Caesar.

"Oh, no. It costs a lot more than your life. To murder innocent people?," says Peeta. "It costs everything you are,"

"Everything you are," repeats Caesar quietly.


And you will be very astonish as you read it that regardless of how brutal they made the games look like, there are still shreds of human morality that tributes cling on too. That even in the face of death, one has a choice either to do good or evil. That's how sometimes in the story, I doubt it made such a moving impact on me that such messages need to go through such barbaric storyline. In fact, I'm glad it did cause most of us wouldn't truly appreciate a thing (and in my case, this story) if it was played of easier. I was even okay with some of the killings, up till Book 3 where it evolves around the District wanting to rebel against the Capitol.

The games itself in my imagination is not a riff-raff sort of thing. None of Potter's magic to win the games or anything and the arena in which the games are held is not some techno structure like the ones they made in video games. The scene is real, though it's designed by the Capitol and the tributes fight on arms in combat. There are some rules and whatnots for the games but I'm not going through the details here. I think I've spilled enough.

Not quite.

If you're the sappy romantic kind that even look for it in a book, fret not. The Hunger Games is packed with all kinds of love and it is very very very deep and touching. The love for a mother to her child, a wife to her husband, between sisters, friends, even between allies or simply people who's not so nice to us and of course, the love triangle between Katniss Everdeen with Peeta Mellark and Gale Hawthorn. Though in most love stories, the reader would almost always know who's the right suit or candidate for the fellow heroin *cough Twilight cough*, trust me this book doesn't give away that privilege easily. I'm considerably torn between Peeta and Gale and both are perfect and imperfect in some ways. Both had their reasons to love Katniss and although rather frustrating to see her play with one in disadvantage of the other, the situation under which she was put into was so...delicate. It took me a long time in the books not to blame her for treating Peeta or Gale the way she had to treat them.

Spoiler alert: I must say that I'm very satisfied with who she chose in the end, only disliking the part where she and the other didn't end too well and, to put in my friend's choice of words, "It looks like the author is rushing to finish off that one,"

I don't know if they are going to make all three books into movies. I would be rather dissapointed if they don't because the ending in Book 1 wasn't that good enough to satisfy the whole story- it needs a countinuance. They might alter the ending, which lots of movies have done before *cough My Sister's Keeper cough*. I don't know if I'm going to like that but at least, my reading the series compensate to that.


Delighted and excited :) Bai Semua!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

they wanna have a fab-less february

"Give me nice makeup, fine accessories and heart/adrenaline pumping books and I shall be goody-good"

Bai beauties! Rock your inner you ;D

watched it pour as I touch your face

I know I haven't write about books a lot. The only ones that I can think of are the Harry Potter series, Twilight series..oh no, scratch that. I think I haven't mentioned Twilight except for the movies in this blog. Hmm let's see what else. A couple of random things- Eat Pray Love and Committed by Elizabeth Gilbert, Say You're One of Them and a book gift from my English lecturer.

But I do enjoy good reads once in a while. I especially love series, but except for the two earlier mentioned above, I haven't been hooked on any series off late. I particularly like action packed or motivational books with some storyline, even some horror ones. I try to steer away from chick lit reads as romance reading is not my cup of tea. Not yet, actually. But if there is any stereotype around on any books, the good ones of course, I'll be sure to jump right into it.

I share this taste for books with my second sister, who has read probably half of Jodi Piccoult. She's currently reading a novel called "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" that will be featured as a movie soon starring Tom Hanks and Sandra Bullock. Judging from the pages left of the book that she has gone through reading in just two days, I can say that I can't wait to read it next. Besides, I like to read books especially if they turn out cool enough to be filmed, right before they make it into movie adaptations, having read The Kite Runner (and also A Thousand Splendid Sun), Eat Pray Love, The Lovely Bones and My Sister's Keeper. Sad to say that I knew most of Nicholas Spark's hard work through the movies though. I just can't stand books with only romance storyline in it.

Which is why, after weeks of reading reviews and watching the trailer, I'm hooked on the Hunger Games trilogy

:)

It's written by Suzanne Collins and there's three books altogether in the series. I've just finished The Hunger Games, this morning and while I'm very tempted to give out my own review (or overview as it likely to be), I am very much keen to keep it on the low side so as to not to spoil the movie that's going to show up later probably in March....

...but Oh My God did I love this book? I DO! The first book is enough to get me itching to read the second one as quickly as possible which I intend to do right after I finish this post.

All I can say is, if I must at least for Book 1, this is a story of a group of kids having to play in a game where in order to win, one must survive the other and in the end, there need to be only one survivor amongst all. It's set in the future, where everything is technologically advanced and survival comes neck in neck with what little morality and humanity there are left. The adventures in the game really draws me in.

I think I have rant on this book all over twitter and facebook to the point of embarrassment. I say this once in blogger and I shall stop here. For the upcoming movie, here is a little trailer of the first book, The Hunger Games

Friday, January 27, 2012

my baby Jans

January is nearing the end and it seems almost rude to ignore this month without blogging about my two FAVORITE beauty product. It's kind of different as it's not makeup related, only to do with skin and body care, but I must tell you this, I have never before been more excited about my favorites than the ones I have for this month.



Milk that is good for the skin. Eh, no. This is no milk carton, but a milkshake cleanser in its absolutely cutest form. This is from the Oslee brand, Oslee Peeling Milkshake Cleanser, another Asian type product that like their many others, put 100% effort on the packaging. I was up the Guardian aisle wanting to buy the Sukin product, an Australian brand to try out since I ran out of my Himalaya cleanser (I'm not a fan of this cleanser btw. It doesn't lather easily and it runs out fast) but then this pink bottle caught my attention.


What did I tell ya? Ain't it a beauty?

It's a peeling type of cleanser, which I'm not sure about but after a week of use, I have to say that it is not abrasive at all. Peeling type of cleanser supposed to be good for your pores as it cleans out the dirt, as the case may be if you favour peeling type of masks. And eventhough peeling suggests that some layer of your skin will be removed and all, this doesn't quite feel like the case here as though dry skin I have, I still feels like it gives out moisture as well. It's a creamy white consistency with some gentle pink exfoliator inside, called the Rosehip Peeling Seeds. It doesn't lather into a foam either but I have to say it's better than the Himalaya one.

This one was quite on the pricey side, with it being around RM50+. But so far, so good for the cleanser. And it's quite packaging, who can resist? I may go and get the other products from this line too if I'm interested.

Next is my absolute fave, the Vaseline Total Moisture Cocoa Glow


I know that my skin need constant moisture, but even then I have been very reluctant to spend on body lotion. Even my Garnier one for dry skin is still half the bottle. But when I say the new lotion line from the Vaseline ad, I knew I had to have this particular one; the cocoa flavor. I'm not a fan of flowery scents, thus I don't like heavy scented perfumes. My type of good smell choice has been musk, vanilla, cocoa and coconut. I know, weird right. But it was a dream come true when I saw this from Vaseline. Even then I had a very strong reason (more like and excuse) to buy it.

I scrouged Watsons and Guardians for this particular lotion, but all was almost gone except for the usual oat and aloe vera one, I think. You could say that this one up here is a hot commodity of it's own. But pick it up I did, after three Watsons trip I guess. And boy did I apply it every few hours. Mak said that it smells exactly like her cooking chocolate. Exactly, I thought.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

all my days in secret

Etude House Golden Ratio Face Glam highlighter, Maybelline falsies Volume Express mascara, Silkygirl Lash Curler, Maybelline Long Extreme Stiletto, Maybelline Color Sensational 215 in Totally Toffee, NYX lipstick in Milan, Etude House Fantastic Lucidarling Fantastic Rouge, The Faceshop Lovely Tint in #11, Etude House eyeshadow in Milk Cocoa BR01, Color Basical bluch in #3, Loreal Super Liner Instant Impact Felt Tip Liner in black, Essesnce long lasting black pencil in #01 Black Fever

The stuffs I got from before my Evidence test in November up till now. I remembered it well because it started with me longing for the Face Glam highligther from Etude House only to find out today when I bought my most recent purchases of the cheek tint, the eyeshadow and the Etude House lipctick, that the highlighter has landed on the hot sale items. Boy if only I could wait a bit longer...

I haven't had much used out of the highlighter, strangely enough. I was content in using my cheapo Elianto powdery one, wanting to run out of it as fast as I could. But I can tell you taht this Face Glam is good. I've been told that the pink one is for the fair toned skin whilst the gold one, the one I bought here is for the medium to darker skin tones. Why I got this one instead is because the pink one really looks like it's researved for Snow White alike, and we all know I'm nearing to become Pochahontas these days :/

I bought three different mascaras because I was just too stubborn to replace my Loreal Ultra Volume Collagen, not with so many other choices out there. I've only just used the Falsies mascara and two other mascaras that I'm trying to finish off in my stash so, most likely they'll be a mascara review part II coming up.

I love the Color Sensational lipstick from Maybelline that I just bought. I was strucked by the design and the fact taht I've been waiting for it to come to Malaysia already that I didn't care at that time of what shade I'm getting. Luckily my senses led me to take a safe, toffee color instead of a plumish red or I wouldn't have too much use out of it. It smells divine too, most lipsticks don't smell divine. I was particularly lucky to find the NYX lipstick too, having loved it but not dared to buy it online. I got this one off Times Square and mauve color of Milan was as safe as I could get out of my shriek that day.

I bought the Color Basical blush because it was Malaysian made (had a separate post on this product previously) and because the color reminds me a lot of the likes of Sendayu Tinggi, which I wouldn't buy because of the vibranty of it. But this one was an okay hot peach with gold specks on it. The only eyeshadow that I bought from Etude House was a greenish gold one and I'm not completely dure whether I like this new packaging of their eyeshadows. But if they can open more easily than the older ones (which I have to pry my nails open in it) then I shall say no more.

My spot on the lip and cheek tint was foreseeable, as I'm in love with tints right now. This one is a fair resemble of my previous Nature Republic so we'll see how that compares. As for the liners, I've only used the Loreal Felt Tip. Now, my case with felt tip liner has not been on good grounds. I find them easily smuged away with shadows and even the blackest of them could fade easily. But i havem't had a chance to try the Asian ones yet, which I'mn excited to- so next on the list would be the Heavy Rotation or Dollywink felt tip liner.

Why do I feel out of breath? Bai all!

gnaw on the claw

I know today is like, page 26 of 366 already but heck with it, I'm going to go on make this post already as it would not take more than half a page of this blog.

The merry introduction should be read in a Southern America slang, ye folks. Blame the mass that I'm currently reading.

Anyhow, onto my Best of 2011. What I find excruciatingly exciting to blog about, beauty-wise during the span of 365 (was it really 365? I wrote 366 above because that's what I seen people writing all over twitter) GAH.

It seems like not much, which is 75% of the truth, but the real deal is, I've started exploring makeup, like really exploring them sometime in the beginning of 2010. I was paddling my way through heaps of products to try out and went on full force buying them, that's why my blog have covered so much about them ever since- it was really exciting and fun to me, to be able to test and see whether I like certain products thus transformed this blog into an opinionated site. But as I went through the year and right into the end of 2011, I have been more focused on what I like about makeup, sticking to old favorites and venturing only to find better alternatives if the ones I have doesn't do me justice (as you will see, in the case of mascaras). My collection has not subdue, rather I have put myself into a little pause button ;

"Wait- do I really want that? I gotta make some research first,"

The bottomline here- don't be judging the minimal amount of favorites I have. Again, read with the same American accent as described.



Super+ BB Cream, Cleansing oil Express, Soup & Glory trick and Treatment Concealer, Nature Republic Stain Girl's Tint, Etude House Proof 10 Aqua Tint, Etude House Touch! Touch! Shadow Liner, Nature Republic cream eyeshadow in descriptions I can't pronounced.

All the products mentioned about I have blogged about, if not individually. I have a separate blog posts just for the BB Cream and the Cleansing Oil which I absolutely LOVE TO DEATH and have used diligently for half of the year 2011. The concealer I bought and used everyday since I got it, just because I lacked good concealers and not until my Topshop one showed up that I began to switched using the later and occasionally coming back to the former. Needless to say, its 'mazing for moi.



One thing I noticed had changed beginning of 2011 is the fact that I started wearing cream eyeshadows instead of the powder ones. It's a good change and gives me the sleek and creamy look to the eyes. Probably because I took fascination in MAC paintpoints but up to this point, I haven't bought one. I know for a fact that Maybelline came up with a Color Tattoo line that's supposed to mimick the paintpots and I've been waiting- patiently- for them to arrive in Malaysia, which I'm sure wouldn't happen in another 2 months, perhaps? Trying to be optimistic yet realistic here.

And please don't look at me like that- I know I've promised an eye makeup routine and I'm dangerously lagging on it *facepalm*



The next thing which seems to be in line with me converting to cream eyeshadows is that I used lip and cheek tints most of the year. Partly because I realized that I had the two tubes from early of the year and worried that they might be of waste, slap them onto the cheeks and turns out heavenly. Forget the last metaphoric exclamation. It just feels nice. It makes the cheeks look flushed enough without the cakey-ness of powder blushers.


If you can see the glowing effect and shimmy-shimmy of my tints. Ignore the white and gold Edward Cullen lightning parting the middle.

I'm really happy that at the end of 2011, I didn't go all too gaga over makeups, so I can finally settle down and use the stack that I have. You'll see in the next post the amount of makeup that I've gotten my hands into, and that is probably 1/3 less compared to the years before. I guess I have my LLB to thank for that, it keeps me in vain with papers instead of vanity itself.

Which is cool with me. Bai all!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

hold it, hold your horses


I hope it's not too late to wish everyone a Happy New Year and may 2012 bring more happiness in your book.


My 2011 has served me great. I didn't have any resolutions before nor do I ever have, but I was glad for the things that rolled in my life in that significant year and that has changed me into who I am, right now. I hope, Insyallah, that I will continue holding the same values, principle and outset in life that has slowly came around in time.


2012 must be awesome.