second apology

i can't remember when this pic was taken, but i believe its the weekend after our faculty's orientation. yes, with all the misery ended, we have to celebrate rite?


i feel extremely, extremely bad to have to go against my promise of coming back to UM to watch the Royal Debate as it's not the same as last time. i can come and go as i please last time but this time round, i have waaaaaaaaaay too much commitments and none of them are near as to be fulfilled. :( that's one thing, and i've already begged, pleaded, rolled in front of my dad (which i use to if i don't have things my way :)) but i don't think its gonna change. I CANNOT GO AND WATCH THE DEBATE.


shit. i seriously feel like crap. zah and emi are already there, i believe ayie and myra will come too.and aween and syahrul too. it'll be like last time where we all come down and support you guys. but here are why i can't come..

• Ari. she's not and excuse, she's a responsibilty that i don't have the slightest intention to leave. emm, to tell the truth, she's starting to grow on to me and despite of her being only two weeks old (now!), she'll likely to blast the house crying if i'm not there. she loves to be held, especially in her chubby fists, and she'll exceptionally know whether its my fingers or not, because she doesn't like Abah's (heheheeee). at this point, i'm getting so used of smooching her every single hours that i don't think i can bare leaving her for a couple of days. besides, my mom needed all the help she can get while she struggles for houseworks and schoolworks. you know, above all reasons known to me, have decided to take up STPM papers marking again. i don't know why, and Abah is going to be away to Manila for a work conference, so yeah, "all hands are definitely on deck now"

• my other sister, Syanaz. we spent a lot of time this year being mad and frustrated at each other because when one person is at home, the other person is at school. we kinda play this "catch me if you can" game where we missed that person in just a teeny bit of seconds. like last time,when i went home for my study week and went back to UM for my exams, she arrived home a day after that! and it's been going on and off for a year already! so last weekend when i saw her, the first thing she said was, "Along balik KL balik end of Disember kan? jadi boleh lah kite keluar jalan-jalan and spend time together kan?," and she went on about all the movies she wanted to watch and places she wanted to go, and expects me to be there with her. so, if i skipped this week again and go to KL when she'll be coming home next monday, she'll be beyond the extent of pissed off (is there such a sentence?? i dunno)

that's two very strong reasons that's been pulling me back from my words, and i'm extremely sorry. you know i would come if i can right? besides, i sincerely and honestly want to be there, not just for the sake of supporting you, but be there for you. i wanted to be able to tell you're the best in front of you, but guess now i have to say it through text messages. if ever, ever you need anything, just give me a text like always right? i wish the best for you, azairi, daus, muney and the whooooole team.you're freaking #1!!!!! i love you.


p/s:Go UM teamzzzzz!