edward cullen : you give me everything already just by BREATHING :)))))

so i've watched New Moon, finally. i was not that keen to watch it at first, but since it's a must watch film and i don't want to miss out on the oooohs and ahhhhhs i'll be getting at when the conversation about it started among my friends. i've not followed the first film, but by the looks of things, its not too hard to guess.

i admit, i like the movie. i'm not crazy about it though. the scenery is great, lots of wood and nature. the actors are hot and beautiful. the script was not lengthy and goes straight to the point. the actions and performances are not dissapointing at all.the message was properly delivered. it was well applauded by me.

only one thing bugs me though, the love of Bella and Edward.

do you believe in the kind of love like that? i hope you do, because i certainly find it hard to drown in me. i'm not saying this in a bad way. plus, i don't read the books yet (which i'm planning to compensate for), but speaking from the rigid eye, i don't believe in a love so strong that it kills you. well, u know, it'll kill you if you let it kill you, right? but you don't need to. you don't have too either. i'm watching the girl having fits and nightmares and ditching her friends and father and do all these dangerous things just to get her love. it was sweet at first when she's sad and all, but towards the end, it's kind of nauseting. but i guess that's just in the story though, and i think the story is beautifully written. if it's design to make people believe that true love does exist, then i'm happy for it. as for me, in the real world, that's kind of tough to live with. i mean, the world is more cruel and can do you more damage than unrequited love. so better learn that quickly, hehee . i know i have. trust me, at this point, i'm really really thankful to my first ex boyfriend (which was what i thought to be my true love once), because if he didn't ditch and dupe me, i would still believe that Cinderella is real.


please, please don't get me wrong. i'm not hating Twilight a bit, i love it. i like the vampire love and have nothing against whats in the film. it's just that i'm merely comparing them to the real world.


i know some of you have found their true love, but it's not without trials right? everyone has their own stories, that's what deline keep telling me. so to those who is in love, i wish the best in your relationship and may it last happily ever after, like true true love (tetibe teringat true blood sekarang hahahaaaa ntah ape2 kan tp tu pun ctr vampire gak kan? hmmm). to those who have lost their love, hey, don't worry. as i said before, the world is more cruel than your heartbreak. so better get up fast and face and embrace the world like you never have. if you have lost the love, then spread your own love. there's so many people out there who's needing it. think of your parents, sisters and brothers (note: Ari ada buaian baru dah :)), friends, and most importantly, your God. do you know how they say that just leave it and think of it as another chapter in your life? i don't like that, personally. i think you should get yourself a new book :)


right after the film, i sent a message to hadzwan:


"thanks sebab bagi saya cinta yang real dan tak mengarut."


p/s: saya still in a relationship dengan hadzwan ye tuan-tuan dan puan-puan. walaupun dia bukan vampire atau werewolf yang hot! :)