make good choices

sebelum saye start merepek2 dalam nie, saye nak post dulu lirik lagu ni.

current eye candy saye. as in MARS candy.wakakaa~

okay post sikit jelah.nak keep the rest to myself je.heeee shorryy

holding on, the days drag on, stupid girl, i should have known, i should have known.

kenapa verse nie?adekah mungkin kearan saye suke mengatakan diri sendiri stupid seperti PINK dalam lagu stupid girl stupid girl stttttttuuuuupppppppiiiiiiiiddddddd girlllll????da ketaq aiihh tgn tekan huruf sama byk2 kali oooo tidak2 saye cuma nak tegaskan betape in-the-face nye lagu ni if gegurl or beboy yang at luar sane tu dgr or bace dlam post saye nie which i know takkan punye la kan hahaa apelaa emmm btw, nie lagu taylor swift, white horse.dengarlah.

okay okay tajuk kali ini bukan tentang stupid ke mengong ke begok ke bugek ke ape ape jelah kenape dah tade ye rancangan ape ape aje tu dulu suke sangat tgk oh okay2 lari topik lagi sekali.

petang td, saye dan keluarga saye pergi melawat adek saye, Syanaz di mrsm balik pulau.now nie musim durian wooo banyak gilak durian2 tepi2 jalan good news utk abah dan wani and bad news utk saye yang x makan durian and kne hadap dgn bau-bauan "nina ricci" kat rumah nanti.

so sampai2 sane ktorg pon makan la dgn berseleranya mak masak nasi beriani and kari kepala ikan terangkat ateh bawoh habeh aiiihh pastu ade lagi kek2 coklat yang mak buat memang macam kambing la ptg td ye apesal laa suke gune perumpamaan kambing nie ye saye pon tak taw.kesian kambing x bersalah.

ttbe tgk2 all of a sudden okay banyak pulak expression di sini, Syanaz menangis....x pasal2 je.ktorg pon panik laa ingat kan pasai palaa.pastu wani dah marah2 abah dah sebab sebelum tu abah memang usik Syanaz je taw haisssh kesian nye adek ni asek kne usik jee.

pastu pujuk punye pujuk baru la dpt taw yg Syanaz ni ade problem.dgn kawan2, dgn study,dgn kerja,result drop la sume.banyak laa.mak ngn saye pon cube2 lah ceria2 riang ria di hari raye dgn Syanaz and bg kate2 perangsang kat Syanaz nie.emmmm rasenye dah bergelen2 dah nasihat kat die ni drpd dulu start die masuk mrsm lagi tp smpai now x nmpak hasil rasenye haisssshhh saye yang x pernah2 bg nasihat nie pon bg lah seketoi due kat adek saye tu wakakaaa dulu kecik2 buli2 usik2 da besar bru taw nasihat ye syira yeeee... :))

dalam on the way blek umah, mase ni sempat bli durian ye waaaaa saye dah agak dah.ttbe mak tnye saye..kenapa syanaz tu lain sangat dengan syira and wani?susahnye nak paham die?

haisshhh tak taw la..konpius2.saye dengan wani nie macam koboi sket.sume bnde cam wadehek je bg ktorg memang malas nk amek port buat hal masing2 je x kaco idup ornag biarlaaa biarlaaaa attitude rasenye ktorg la pling expert dlam wat dek and hati batu kot.

tapi tapi

Syanaz bukan macam tu.die sangat soft,fragile, hati kristal kate abah.silap sket nanges.susah sket trase hati.tgur sket jauh hati so memang nak kene berhati2 lah dengan die ni drpd kecik lagi sampai ke besar, ayat nie yang saye selalu ulang2 kat die tiap kali die nak pagi jauh dr family x kire laa camping je, jalan jumpe kawan ke ape ke..

MAKE GOOD CHOICES

siyes, start drpd die skolah rendah smpai skunk, tiap kali die kol pon, instead of saying goodbyes, i say this.in the hope yang one day die akan realise and gune 3 perkataan ni semaksima mungkin..

TO NORLAILATUL SYAFINAZ BINTI MOHAMAD ABDULLAH:

Along sayang Syanaz sangat.syanaz and wani adek2 along.walaupon berbeza perangai, Along tetap sayang korang.syanaz kne strong.syanaz x boleh biar diri syanaz kne buli around and syanaz x boleh paksa diri Syanaz buat ape yang Syanaz x suke.Syanaz kne berani.if kat skolah ni pon Syanaz x brani, macam mane Syanaz nak idup kat U?kat keje nanti?berlembut pon ade mase2 nye.jangan sampai memakan diri.Syanaz nak marah along sebab cakap macam ni pon xpelah, Along x kesah.nak tulis dalam diari Syanaz macam dulu2 pon Along xkesah.sebab kite adek bradek.and nie nasihat kakak utk adik.if Syanaz marah pon, air dicincang takkan putus kan?ingat syanaz, make good choices.

my destiny

once the dark clouds hover on top of me
i was so scared i couldn't breathe
my eyes swollen but the pain won't go away
i can't take it, i'm still living it to this day

so little to face, with so much disgrace
people hate me because i'm so different
so i see now i'm the one for the pain taste
once failed so i Asked for this to stay permanent

i wouldn't know how to change the world
i wouldn't know how to take it in
but if i stop now, the place gets cruel
it gets under my deep skin

maybe people will look into these swollen eyes
and see the tears that has gone dry
i'll be on my feet before they know it
and tell them there is lot more to live
and i don't want to miss it

my fate here has failen me
but i would not let it hung me back
i would write other wonderful destiny
as long as i live, and live on His track

my ego, i would not let them bruised
my pride, i would not let them down
my self, i would not let be used
i will heal fast and leave this town

i would write my fate elsewhere
far, far away my swollen eyes can see
and the people won't take me away
for i have it in with me, my destiny..

ghindu!

emm.xde nak cakap banyak.cume nak post gambar ini sahaja.baru je lepas cut and paste dalam facebook kinah.

saye.kinah.yana.

saye sangat rindu mereka.mereka kawan-kawan terbaik saye semasa di sekolah.mereka tulang belakang saye.mereka hidup saye ketika itu.saye sangat sayang pada mereka.

saye baru jumpe kinah beberapa bulan yang lepas.alhamdullilah, die masih sihat dan banyak kami kongsikan bersama.may you always be blessed and successful kinah.

yana ade di UKM, buat microbiologi.tak pernah jumpe die lagi setakat ini selepas sekolah tp sangat berharap dapat jumpe.yana, i musth u so much.

ade due lagi rakan baik saye.

bella dan keyla.

bella di KMS.x lame lagi nak fly ke india.da beberapa kali berjumpe dengan die.die kawan sye yang sangat strong and independent.i wish i have half ur strenght bella.

keyla pula dah selamat di Republik Czech.die pon kuat juge.saye rindu die.die kate nak balik malaysia.keyla, if ur reading this, seriously i've been thinking of u nak balik bile da lame da ni.hehe.i misth u.

Tuhan, lindungilah kawan-kawanku ini dalam rahmatMu.permudahkanlah jalan hidup mereka.dan satukanlah ukhwah kami kembali..

;)

22 questions

1. Who tagged you?

erk.actually nobody did.i found this out myself.

2. Do you like tags?

i don't know.maybe.

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?

that i become rich rich and rich.

4. What is your current mood?

happily exhausted.

5. who do you want to be?

a better me.

6. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?

possibly, yes.

7. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?

i prefer both, thank you.

8. What is your favourite food?

i want to change this to what do you want to eat right now.hahaa.i want chocolate cake, chocolate doughnuts, crisps, jellies, Mars Bars bla bla bla.


9. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?

i will do nothing.i'm tired already.


10. What do you pray each day for your loved one?

that they will love me more muahahahahaa~~!!

11. What catch your attention at best?

stores in the mall.especially if they put on trendy clothes to their window mannequins.

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?

still young and fabULOUS.

13. What are the reason that could make you so tension?

when i don't understand what the lecturer is crapping about.when i'm on PMS.when i'm in a stupid fight with my boyfriend.


14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

she's beautiful because she's me hahaa geddit?

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

single and rich

16. Who would you like to see the moment you wake up?

my chipmunk..huhuu mish u so much.

17. What's the character must have in your partner?

loyal and patience.and so much in love with me.


18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you like to pick?

i would rather not let that happen.


19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?

forgive, yes.forget, no.

20. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

hmmmm.i prefer to be in both.commitedly single.

21. chocolate or vanilla?

owh.chocolate.lots of it please.

22. Who are the 5 person that you wuld like to tag?

right now i want to tag my cousin but i really don't know how.

mEmaNjaT pEpiJAt

okay..dis isn't the best photo of miley cyrus, tapi whatever whatever..di sini saye ingin bercerita tentang lagu beliau yang best gempak sangat kababoom kababoom nak menangis if dengar huhuu terharu banyak maknenye rock gile haven!!rase nak kluarkan lighter and wave it in the airrr tiap kali dngar die nyanyi wooo oooo woooo woooo best siiiioooootttt.

hah.begitulah sukenye saye terhadap satu lagu yang beliau nyanyikan ini.lagu apekah ia??

-THE CLIMB-

yes.yessss.inilah lagunya.ain't about how fast i get there.ain't about whats waiting on the other sideeeeeee......its the climbbbbbbb lalalalaaa~~~oh okayokay da start nak mengedik ni aiiihh stop2 huhuu suare x sedap macam miley cyrus la syira..xbley wat mulut nganga luas2.rambut x mengerbang ngerbang macam die hahaa apelah kaetannye kan.

emm.biar saye menceritekan tentang bagaimane saye mula mengenali lagu ini (macam gaye 360 pulak).bagaimane yaa?

haa.mase tu saye, muney dan zah keluar membeli belah di Bangsar (5th avenue malaysia ye).shopping x hengget pdhal tgh study week dah pandai sgt aiihh.tapi tapi tapi nak jugak bli dress banyak2 nak look cute nak look stylish wahh bajet blair waldorf pule yee.

okay2.ktorg pon msok la dlm satu butik ni namenye Serene Outlook and oh my gossshhh(gaye Laura dlm citer upik abu dan laura pulak hahaa biarlaa saye minat indon ye), dorg pasang lagu ni berkali kali kali dan kali.sampai errrrgggkkk sakit gile telinge dala kuat x henggat punye pasang.zah pon tanye ni lagu ape?dan dgn penuh keyakinannye saye menjawab "ni lah lagu terbaru alannis morissete".emmm.za sempat bli jaket dan saye sempat beli dress muney??die x bli ape2 tp due tige kali ajak pegi kat kedai tu lagi smpaikan kitorg da x larat lg nak masuk balik and kne dengar lagu tu berkali kali kali kali.

selang berape2 hari lpas tu x ingat la exactly when tp mase tu ktorg sume dlm kete and deline maen2 dgn radio channel seperti biase and stop ble dgr lagu nie kat fly.she went.."oh my gosssshhh( macam upik abu dan laura lagi), dis is my fave song.u guys shud hear dis.its so inspirational..die cakap no matter what pon halangan yg datang, yg penting, its the climb,".saye, za dan muney pkir2 la dengan beria nye kat mane la ktorg penah dgr lagu ni.and den i said oh noooo its dis song yang kite dgr berkali kali kali kat bangsar hari tuh.pastu gelak gelak gelak ble pkir terseksaanyaaa ktorg kne hadap lagu ni hr tuh.den zah said ,"ni alannis morissete kan?"

delin cam hah??muke yg sgat annoyed and tercalar hatinye.dis is miley cyrus laa ngeng.zah pon gelak2 kat saye yang sgt konfiden kate lagu ni lagu alannis morissete yelah dah suare nak dekat same manelah taw suare si miley ni bley jd sevogue tu dulu2 nyanyi 7 things xdela smpai macam tu sekali ditariknye suare tuuuu zah pon da everytime dgr lagu ni mesti akan kate ohhh nie lagu alannis kan lai?lalalalaaaa and everytime sye akan buat muke due kupang.

tapi ape ape pon lepas tu saye(xnak mengaku sebenarnye habislah if deline bace post ni), dah start minat lagu nie.smalam aje dah dengar berkali kali kali hahaa x ingat dulu dgr kat bangsar mcm nak meletup gegendang telinge.lpas tu video clip yg sngat2 cool dah tgk dah pon kat youtube smalam oh my goshhh dasyatnye..suke suke suke..

saye memang suke dengar lagu2 yang meaningnye sangat deep.sangat worth untuk didengar.poetic.xkesahlah..kadang2 the racsals or veronica sisters pon peotic juge.sebab boley jd ilham untuk saye buat poems.

theres always going to be another mountain

i'm always going to have to make it move

always going to be an uphill battle

sometimes i'm going to have to lose

nie lah part yang paling menyayat and menyentuh hati.kenape??

sebab rangkap nie buat saye sedar yang sejauh mane pon kite pergi or capai dalam hidup ni, kite kne sentiase bersyukur, yang pentingnye bukan ape yang dapat dicapai or x dapat dicapai tu tapi usaha dan gigih perih yang kte curahkan untuk dapat ape yang kite nak capai tu waaaaahhh puitis nya saye bravo bravo laiii tepuk tepuk tangan oh my gossssshhhh i think thats the best opinion u ever had ngahagahaaa boley tulis buku neh.

antara impian2 saye yang dapat dicapai setakat ini is...dis is the big one...the one i've always been proud of...can make me smile in the morning juz by thinking it..

mase saye di asasi dulu.jalan nye sungguh payah.dahlah place in U x secure lg sebab belajar under kementerian.nak adapt from belajar in science stream ke art stream lagi. oh sangat2 x bley terime itu.and students nye yang sangat ramai and places in degree law sangat terhad..students nye pon pandai2 cili padi lebey pedas dr cabai haiiishhh makan cili byk sgt tu yang jd pandai tu kot.cakap english berhabuk drpd habuk kuman harpicks erkk??but sye usaha dan usaha dan usaha lg.those "ketakutan" tu seems to become my stimulator utk berjaye pulak.and who whould have thought it was possible?now im very proud of where i end up in...the best law school there is in Malaysia..learning directly from the renowned lecturers and tutors who set the benchmark in the legal fraternity.one of the luckiest and still fells like it.

i may not know it

but these are the moments that

i'm going to remember most

just got to keep going

where would i end up later after i graduate? AG's Chamber? corporate companies? law firms? law lecturer or tutor? government legal advisor?

entahlah.

hati, take me wherever i want to go.and i won't regret it.

keep on moving

keep climbing

keep the faith

its all about

its all about

the climb

thank you miley! u rock girl!