over and done

i should have noticed-it was too good to be true. i was laughing all day long, spending times i really don't have with my bestfriend. until it hit-and it hit hard. THE TEARS. darn.and when i thought she had finished off already.



lai..kenapa aku still rasa macam nie.aku taknak..aku xbley berhenti fikir.aku taw aku kne stop, tp aku x cukup kuat.susahnya.macam mane nie..



TEARS.TEARS.MOOOOORE TEARS.



she knew it too well, the reason why she came into my aid was because im the person whom she can spill those waters unshamelessly, whom she can go on and on dragging away with all the taradiddle storries that never seem to end and whom she knows will bite her tongue and end up comforting her for whatever sanity left inside her.she knew she can count on me to be really open with her,but wouldn't dare to hurt her feelings all the same.so in the end,she got what she wanted to hear and i had to be prepare for the next flood to come in.well, maybe she counted her eggs way too early before they even drop out of them chickens' poo poo.



i would bet on my soul anything i said next would be those which she expects to hear.



nanges la if ko rase itu melegakan.kdang2 membantu jugak kalo ko nanges and bercerita.aku hope pasni ko akan okay balik..sabar ey..



instead, this came out



will u stop it already??i remember u crying far more often than u ever did laughing-and really,IT'S NOT WORTH IT.can't u see that it's giving u no good?if u don't stop now, u will never ever going to stop! either u stop now or i'll do it for you.



the next thing i know was i grabbing off her phone. CLICK.phonebook opens.CLICK CLICK CLICK. i found the "ource"of her tears.CLICK. i deleted it right there and then.next stop, messaging box. CLICK. inbox opens. CLICCCCCCCCCCKKKSSSSS.i deleted all the "source's" messages.hahaaa how about that??



she look at me, amazed.she didn't cry though.i asked,did it feel anything bad?she said, strangely..NO.



next day, i whizzed her off to a hairdressing saloon.1st reason(and really is my major concern), her hair was getting hideous by the day and it failed me to understand how much cream she had to stick on those strands.2nd reason, i wanted her to chop and crop off hairs which grows on as she was with the said "source" and wear on a new, dazzling crown on her head, pulling off all those vibe.it was worth the 3 hours though.my friend is now a complete new person.she had on this kind of proud smile on her face right after we left the saloon, and i can't stop realizing that that same smile had reached her eyes and oppps-no tears this time.

she texted me this before she returned to her sanctuary island, promising(and i hope she keeps it) to no longer shed any unworthy tears.

lai,thankyou..syg ko sgt.aku akan ingat hari nie smpai bile2.n one day,if i've a bf, i'll say that u r the reason he find me, u hve change me, u hv make me feel sumthng i've never dare to feel it b4, n u bring out my strengh. doakan aku kuat..may God bless u dear.

to my friend, a message from the heart(now that u are light-headed enough to listen), it takes a lot to make a change, but u have to start ONE STEP AT A TIME.a new hairdo and a reborn phone wll keep u confident as long as the heart and the brain do the same.whatever it is, thou shant stop trying and trying. :)

p/s: bawak aku naek kete baru ko nanti ye!